Pain

Life is a crazy thing. One minute you are up, one minute you are down. There is always a question that lies with this. Who do you take with you on this rollercoaster ride called LIFE? We all make the choices of who comes with us. Funny thing, they don't even get an option. They are dragged unwillingly and unwittingly into the coaster.

Don't know if its going to be a high or a crush. Is their heart lifted up with excitement? Is it loved and cherished as it should be? Or is it mangled? Is it wrenched and twisted into a painful art form? Without consent, we abuse. The lashing out seems to be in darkness. The strong emotion of the moment blinds us as surely as Jesus blinded Ananias. Its hard to see through the moment. A moment that grips us with emotion. Elation or despair. Contagious joy or a crushing jab. The worst part of this whole scenario is that we do it most often to those we care about and love.

Wrongs are most often committed to loved ones. A heart, that we dream of protecting, is slashed open with harsh words and harsh treatment. The gracious kindness and beauty and fun that was given and brought into our life is met with the selfish hurt of our heart. Why do humans act this way? Why do I act this way? I know better, but I chose the wrong path anyways. I put my "needs" in front of God's best wishes and what He would have for me in my life. Yet again, this child ran off trying to pull God along.

I did what I promised I would not do. Looking out for me instead of others. All I can do is pray for forgiveness. Pray that a heart is mended. For even if it is a tiny nick or abrasion on the heart, it is the equivalent to a gaping flesh wound on the body. The body heals quicker and instantly forgives. The heart is not so gracious. I pray that I would never hurt that beautiful and sweet heart again. Avoid causing pain to these treasured hearts of those we care for and love. You never know what sort of chain reaction you might cause!

kenny